who am i? if this once i were to rely on a proverb, then perhaps everything would amount to knowing whom i 'haunt.' i must admit that this last word is misleading, tending to establish between certain beings and myself relations that are stranger, more inescapable, more disturbing than i intended. such a word means much more than it says, makes me, still alive, play a ghostly part, evidently referring to what i must have ceased to be in order to be who i am.